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Dear Ismat:

I WAS driven to share with you important things about me because I know that like so many people whose minds had been enlightened by your advises, I’ll also be one of them. Ismat, tawaga lang kog si Mr. Lihim tungod kay gikan pa sa akong pagkabata nag-edad og 11 ma-attract na man ko sa akong isigkaingon. I blamed sometimes one incident when I was 11.

Usa ka silingan namo teenager male, had sex with me. Iyang gigamit ang akong kamot sa pagpaduwa sa iyang kinatawo.

Diha-diha nibati kog himaya sa sex ug sugod adto ma-attract na ko og pipila nga males nga ganahan sad ko.

Motuo ka o di, Ismat, karon I am 33 ug virgin pa. No experience in love relationships sa male or female. Tungod, kay tago man gud ko ug masculine look sad ko, medyo kadudahan sa uban kay until now I have no partner. Usahay, maglibog ko kay naay usahay ganahan kaayo ko motan-aw niya ug mobigay na jud ko. Pero sa among panag-uban-uban sa kadugayan sa tanto nakong pugong mawala man sad akong gibati as in hanaw jud. Ug naa say uban nga ganahan jud ko ug naa jud ang love ug sexual urge pero lagi maayo man kaayo ko mo-control pero lagi ang resulta sakit sa dughan ug ma-depress dayon ko.

So far, wa pa koy giyagyagan og gugma sa male bisan tuod og puwerte na nakong gustoha. Ngilngig man gud ko mo control sa akong emotion. Sa babae, Ismat, naay daghang gwapa, pero wa man jud koy drive nga makuha sila as my GF, but as friends only. Tambagi ko, Ismat, kon unsay angay kong buhaton. Akong sitwasyon karon masulub-on, kulang ug depress. I feel very depressed especially when I think about my male friends whom I love before very badly in secret one at a time unya wa ko makasulti sa akong feeling for fear nga ila kong i-reject and laugh at me. Some suspected ug nagsugod nag likay nako. Di man sad ko ganahan ug malipay makig uban-uban sa grupo sa mga 3rd sex, bastosan ko and I don’t like to look like a female. Ismat, unsa akong angay buhaton in general aron makabaton ko og stable sa emotion ug lovelife. Ganahan sad unta ko makaila-ila og friends or groups who will accept me.

MR. Lihim

ALPHABET OF HAPPINESS

* A--Accept *
Accept others for who they are and for the choices they've made even if
you have difficulty understanding their beliefs, motives, or actions.

*B--Break Away *
Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope to
accomplish with your life.

*C--Create *
Create a family of friends whom you can share your hopes, dreams,
sorrows, and happiness with.

*D--Decide *
Decide that you'll be successful and happy come what may, and good
things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along the
way.

*E--Explore *
Explore and experiment. The world has much to offer, and you have much
to give. And every time you try something new, you'll learn more about
yourself.

*F--Forgive *
Forgive and forget. Grudges only weigh you down and inspire unhappiness
and grief. Soar above it, and remember that everyone makes mistakes.

*G--Grow *
Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or
stand in your way.

*H--Hope *
Hope for the best and never forget that anything is possible as long as
you remain dedicated to the task.

*I--Ignore *
Ignore the negative voice inside your head. Focus instead on your goals
and remember your accomplishments. Your past success is only a small
inkling
of what the future holds.

*J--Journey*
Journey to new worlds, new possibilities, by remaining open-minded. Try
to learn something new every day, and you'll grow.

*K--Know *
Know that no matter how bad things seem, they'll always get better. The
warmth of spring always follows the harshest winter.

*L--Love *
Let love fill your heart instead of hate. When hate is in your heart,
there's room for nothing else, but when love is in your heart, there's
room for endless happiness.

*M--Manage *
Manage your time and your expenses wisely, and you'll suffer less
stress
and worry. Then you'll be able to focus on the important things in
life.

*N--Notice *
Never ignore the poor, infirm, helpless, weak, or suffering. Offer your
assistance when possible, and always your kindness and understanding.

*O--Open *
Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you. Even during the
worst of times, there's still much to be thankful for.

*P--Play *
Never forget to have fun along the way. Success means nothing without
happiness.

*Q--Question *
Ask many questions, because you're here to learn.

*R--Relax *
Refuse to let worry and stress rule your life, and remember that things
always have a way of working out in the end.

*S--Share *
Share your talent, skills, knowledge, and time with others. Everything
that you invest in others will return to you many times over.

*T--Try *
Even when your dreams seem impossible to reach, try anyway. You'll be
amazed by what you can accomplish.

*U--Use *
Use your gifts to your best ability. Talent that's wasted has no value.
Talent that's used will bring unexpected rewards.

*V--Value *
Value the friends and family members who've supported and encouraged
you, and be there for them as well.

*W--Work *
Work hard every day to be the best person you can be, but never feel
guilty if you fall short of your goals. Every sunrise offers a second
chance.

*X--X-Ray *
Look deep inside the hearts of those around you and you'll see the
goodness and beauty within.

*Y--Yield *
Yield to commitment. If you stay on track and remain dedicated, you'll
find success at the end of the road.

*Z--Zoom *
Zoom to a happy place when bad memories or sorrow rear an ugly head.

Bournemouth Beach front view

Bournemouth, england

Ang Buwad

akong dinner karon... lami kaayo... ng prito jud ko buwad pinikas.... grabing kaon nako oi..

mura na bag ohan intaw ko kay sukad pag abot nako sa UK.. karon pa intaw ko nakakaon

balik ani intaw..hahaha hastang kinamot nako oi.... samot na with silly halang au..

pag ka lami intaw.... hahahaha... busog na ko....

umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh-eh

I RECENTLY bought a new umbrella, after deliberating for several months whether to buy one or not.

After getting drenched several times during heavy downpour while doing field work, I finally decided to buy a new umbrella.

I don’t normally buy umbrellas because of the horrible timing of my previous purchases. In the past, I bought umbrellas when the rainy season was over.

Over the years, I’ve managed to collect and lose countless umbrellas.

Some were plaid, others had horrendous floral prints (I’ve had tons of ugly floral printed umbrellas) and others had strange cartoon characters on them. Others were either plain black or dark blue.

I don’t usually use umbrellas because I like walking in the rain. But since I cannot walk in the rain everyday, I realized that I seriously need an umbrella.

So I bought one. A nice green one.

Though green is not my favorite color, my umbrella’s particular shade of green reminds me of green apples. And I like green apples.

So one morning, my spiffy new umbrella and I hit the streets with hopes of meeting up with a news source.

Since the sun’s glare was unbearable (and to quote a good friend: “Ugh, it was so init ba!”, insert a disgruntled expression and feeble attempts of fanning your face with hands), I decided to use my wonderfully green, brand new umbrella to spare me from the UV rays.

For a second, the famed “Umbrella” song came to mind and briefly, I hoped that it would rain. It would be just wonderful to get caught under the rain with my new umbrella in hand. It would make a very good “I’m singing in the rain” moment, too.

However, back to reality and the very hot weather I was caught under. I didn’t even get five minutes of enjoyment with what little protection my umbrella gave me from the heat when, out of nowhere, somebody whacks it from behind.

And by whacking it, my wonderfully new umbrella’s rod hit me on the side of my face.

Oh, joy.

As I whirled around, I screamed and stumbled backwards when I came face to face with an old man trying to once again slap my umbrella out of my hands.

“What the *bleep* is wrong with you?! Using an umbrella when it’s not raining! (Insert loads of expletives),” he screamed, waving his arms around.

Normally, I’d fight back and scream bloody murder for scaring me half to death. But all I ever managed was a feeble “sorry” and I quickly stumbled away from him.

He stalked off, muttering to himself a string of cuss words.

I followed him down the street minutes later, hoping not to cross his path again. Only to see him slap an umbrella out of some middle-aged woman’s hands.

Ah, our poor umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh-eh.